Happy Good Friday, y’all!
It is a rainy morning here on the farm while I enjoy my coffee in the loggia with my Merle wet and lying at my feet. I managed to get the horses fed before it started raining again. Mother Nature truly put on a light show with the heavy rain storms last night and there is a good chance for more today. I am smiling contentedly as I think of the horses and cows on their happy, lush pastures.
Good Friday is turning into another one of those reflective days for me. I mean, it should be a day of reflection already of course with the coming of Easter, but it is even more so for me now. Good Friday was one of my days with H.

I am not sure when it became a tradition of sorts, but it just did. It was one of the days we would regularly try to schedule a ride together. I think it was a day that she always had off from work and she did not feel as bad taking that time away from her husband, other animals, and home. Sometimes we rode with other friends and sometimes it was just the two of us. It just depended on what everyone had going on. In the more recent past, it was usually just the two of us.
I really miss her today and that seems to make me even more grateful that it is raining like this. Like we are not really missing another ride together as the years accumulate.

However, as sad as I feel at the present moment have felt for the past few days at times coming up on today, I have also found myself smiling at the same time. While on the one hand I am not quite sure how I feel about that, the whole dichotomy of feelings I mentioned yesterday, on the other hand I am beyond grateful that I am here. That I am able to look back on all our time together so happily and be glad that we had it. That I can really feel the gratitude that we were even friends at all, even if it feels like her time here on earth and our time together as friends was cut short.
Being in this new and improved and bigger, but hey the same great thing, space of gratitude while I am remembering my H, I am beyond grateful for my life and my time in this earthly world. I know this probably sounds odd and possibly I could have worded it in a better way, but it is true. Case in point being H. We do not know how much time we have and we can not create it or get it back. My point is, this ever repetitive AHA moment, use your time wisely!


I do not know what exactly I set out to write today, but I am grateful. I am grateful that H and I were friends. I am grateful to FEEL. Whatever the feelings may be. Happy, sad, you name it. They are not independent of each other anyway. You can not have one without the other. I am grateful for my grief because I think it makes the joy bigger.


Walk in love, dear readers! Go live your time while you enjoy the memories! Dance in the rain!
I need to go get to work!

I am so sorry that you lost your friend. I do know what you mean by feeling sad, grateful and happy at the same time.
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I know that none of us know hwo long have to be here. Gratitude for each day is a blessing indeed. Peaceful Easter to you Avery.
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What a beautiful post about memories, grief, gratefulness and happy times. You have a gift for writing as I envision the rain on the weekend in your area. I hope you have a peaceful Easter. I think all the animals in our lives especially the horses also help with grief and our happiness. They are my therapy. Sending hugs your way! ❤️🐴🙏❤️
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Thank you so very much. Yes, I agree!!!
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Thanks for sharing your experience. It has been very moving!
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Thank you so very much for the comment and the reading! I am glad it spoke to you. I hope you stop back by!
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