When It Rains

This world has a lot of sayings, many that are often misunderstood. Have you ever heard the one about when it rains?

Something about it pouring?

Ya. I have heard that too. When it rains, it pours. A lot actually. I even use the phrase myself, lightly and in passing, never really giving it much thought. It has a whole new meaning to me now.

It truly is a shame that sometimes, as in right now, my life can not be like a music video. At least there would be some laughing matter.

Yes indeed, something quite like this. This looks lovely, would not you say? Kinda funny.

However, in my particular case these days, when it rains…..

It pours…


Sorry, I am not really sorry. I do not know how to even say it without trying to make light while my heart is in my throat choking me.

This is my reality. Part of the ‘whole lotta life‘ I have been living. A curve ball so far out of left field, it came from the right, just as the fast ball barreled through the heart of home plate.

I can’t believe I am having to write this. Never did I ever think in a million years this would happen.

I have some not so good news to share. The worst possible kind.

The silent kind.

My Darcy has been diagnosed with cancer.


What the literal heck fire on God’s green earth?!

My sweet and innocent Darcy girl. Not even six years old.

It is quite advanced and pervasive. Between ultrasound and test results, her current status and lack of appetite, my own research, and separate vet opinions, there is not a viable treatment option.

I am completely gutted. It has taken us by storm, the likes of which I have never before known. Not like a slow creeping hurricane. It feels more than rude and unfair. Human life is hard enough on its own without making the animal lives hard.

I could go on in this manner, and admittedly I have had those moments (completely broke down while driving and again on a restaurant patio with my mom), but we must be strong and positive for her. View the world and live life the way she does. Give her the best of the best. Keep playing. We have not struck out in the game of life.


We celebrate the life we have, every day, and take each day as it comes. I am going to do everything I can to give her the best quality of life possible until it is her time. She can eat whatever she wants to eat, healthy diet out the window. She is going to go with me everywhere possible. We are going to have as much farm time as I can manage. We find a reason (and there are many) to sing a song through it all.

All the prayers, positive thoughts and vibes would be greatly appreciated by us both.

I do not understand this and I do not think I ever will.

Such a happy dog that brings endless joy to every being she encounters. So much greatness must be shared. Her spirit must have a greater calling.

If you have any tried and true proven ways to keep a dog eating, lay them on me. I need more tricks up my sleeve.

There is a life lesson somewhere in here. I am just working on unpacking it.

Walk in love, dear readers, even when it is dang hard. I am taking my time.



11 thoughts on “When It Rains

  1. So sorry to read this. We had to have our little dog Tia put down while we were in Florida. she had a tumor on her adrenal gland . Surgery would have been very difficult and without a guarantee of success. So we said goodbye to her rather than see her suffer. It is devastating to loose a pet. A real heart breaker. But the plus side is we can spare them suffering and not keep them going when their quality of life is deteriorating. I have no solutions for tempting Darcy to eat. With Tia she got very picky and then started to throw up what she did eat and then would eat very little. They loose their appetite when there are gravely ill. I will say a prayer for her and for you.

  2. I am so very very very sorry. My heart breaks for you. She is the loveliest of dogs. When I lost Steele it felt so wrong to lose a creature so young and joyful. I don’t understand it either. All I can say is the best part is that they do not know how brief their lives are. All they know is the joy. It’s not enough but sometimes it has to be.

    Sending you all the hugs and love I can from far away.

  3. Heather

    I am so very sad to read your story. I am a dog LOVER and just lost my baby after 121/2 years . I do have some tricks for you. Turmeric is a wonderful paste to make for them while being sick. It relieves some of the symptoms as well as CBD . Anything to just keep him comfy and eating. I always cooked for them . Chicken, steak, sweet potato, healthy but things they enjoy. And of course vanilla ice cream for dessert 😊. Just be with him and live and love the days. I did it and it is something no one can ever take away. ❤️

    1. I have been doing the CBD oil and some medicinal mushrooms. Cooking works sometimes <3. I will try the tumeric if I can get her to eat it. Thank you so much for reading and commenting <3

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